Road Trip

We got the news on Thursday that Eric's surgeon is ready to do the "big" surgery. He went to the cardiologist's office on Monday and we asked him to call Cleveland to find out what is going on with the surgery (I guess he got results). So it is off to Cleveland on Monday. I had asked for more time to plan this, but to no avail, I only have a couple of days.

I'm still on my diet and these are the time when it is hard...when I am under a lot of stress. I mailed out an application yesterday and rolled up coins that were on the dresser. So I guess I am working on some of those goals! I'm not sure if I have lost any weight, but more than likely I have. I need to get to the store to get my vitamins. Planning...I get paralyzed a bit when thinking about what I need to do before Monday. So many things, such little time. And I am not looking forward to being away from home for 10 - 12 days. It's not like a vacation even though I will be living in a hotel room.

Once he is on the road to recovery, it should make things somewhat better. He should be able to go to cardiac rehab now and get his strength back. That will make a big difference. And he will also be able to have a kidney transplant should one become available. Time will tell what is in store for us.

Day 3

This morning has gone well, so far. I've gotten my boys to their places and I am ready to start work on my goals. Today I plan on sending out at least one resume and searching to see what else is out there. I have had my yogurt and will finish my breakfast off shortly. The first two days of my diet (maybe just the first day and a half), I felt hungry all the time. At the moment I am still hungry but I haven't finished my breakfast yet. My latest thing is to get over feeling so tired all of the time. I think that dropping some of this weight will help with that.

A busy Tuesday (January 20, 2009)

It was a busy day with the Inauguration. We went out to breakfast and I stayed to my diet. Once we were finished running our few errands, we came home and watched President Obama take the Presidential Oath. How wonderful to see our nation rejoice again! It has been a long time. I am on the way to getting my life back in order. I have a couple of prospects for jobs and the diet is going alright. After dinner, I felt so full and I only ate 1/2 of what I would have normally eaten. One day at a time...

A new day

It is a new day for me... I have had time to think about things and I have decided that I need to take action. I have let myself become who I am and I don't like who that is. So now I need to take action. My goals are (in no particular order at this moment):

1. Lose this dreaded weight that I have gained!
2. Go back to work!
3. Get organized!
4. Learn to love who I am again!

Ambitious goals, I know. But things need to change for me and now is the time. I need to look at who I want to be on a daily basis and work towards getting there. I can remember a time where I was the weight I wanted to be, with a great job and nearly everything going for me. I loved me and I loved most of my life! Now, I keep waiting for some miracle to change my life. I tell myself that something will happen. It's been nearly a year now (actually nearly 2 years now)...not much has happened...but it can, with my determination, it can!

People who know me tell me that it is alright. That I have been through a lot these past two years. That is true. My husband has been seriously ill, I was layed off from a job I loved, and many other things. I have spent the last two years taking care of others and now it is time to take care of myself. This is not being selfish, just reality. If I don't start now, I may not get the chance to do it later.

Today is a new day. I have my goals. I'm determined to do it. I'm not going to back down on getting my life back in order and on it's way to success!

BTW...the picture on this blog represents what I looked like a few years ago and what I am striving to look like today.